Right now, it's dusk on Koh Phangan in Thailand. I'm sitting on the porch of my cozy island bungalow. The sun is setting on the ocean and I'm listening to the most soul stimulating playlist made by my newest friend, sister, and travel partner, Milan. Isn't it funny that I left Milan to go to India and now I've brought Milan with me on the leg of this journey? I've learned it's never simply funny or interesting, but more as Dante said "a divine comedy". The Universe always knows what she's doing and she's never wrong.
I met Milan in India at yoga school, which I haven't had much time to reflect on because it was such an intense experience. I did enjoy my time in India, but it honestly was very overwhelming both inside and outside of the ashram. It was a solid month of culture shock and I am throughly grateful for this transition to Thailand. Each day since I've been in Thailand, I take a moment to write or reflect at dusk or dawn. An elder in India told me it is the most powerful time of day to meditate as ether is most accessible during this time. It's apparent in nature too, with the Rooster's cackling at dawn and the Cicada's chirping at dusk. I have a constant melody here to remind me to practice intention everyday. And today I am reflecting on ego.
Have you ever experienced a want for something in life that you know your heart doesn't really need? This thing won't even serve you at your highest level, you simply want it because you need the gratification of possessing said thing. It could be a job, a material item, or a relationship. I'm going through this now and all signs point to pure ego. What I've learned so far from my time in Asia is that we must listen to our heart through ignoring the mind and dissolving the deceptive parts of our ego. Ego is important in a positive way too, because we need pieces of it for our worldly well being, self value, and confidence. But where we don't need it, is in matters of the heart and soul. I've been struggling with this concept my whole life and when I ask for answers it always comes down to releasing my ego in situations that are heart centered. You may find that it's the same for you. One thing I have challenged myself to do is listen to the voice behind my thoughts. This voice is intuition. Intuition always trumps ego and it's a voice that we can always hear. Many times though, we choose not to listen because we think we know best. Things in this life can sometimes be hard, but only because we make them that way.
It's been beautiful being here in Asia and focusing on holistic, soulful healing. I've been able to see immense changes in myself that I didn't notice as they were happening. I'm much calmer and understanding of both how in and out of control I am in this galaxy of opportunity. I breathe in gratitude, abundance, and love while relinquishing control to the Divine. Koh with the flow is my Thai theme and as legend has it that this island formed atop a bed of natural quartz, these feelings of growth and healing will surely be amplified. Wherever your island is ( and it's all a mirror of your reality) I hope you reign in your ego and tap into your soul.
Love, light, and lion vibes,
Hey, again. It's Shonna.
I'm one part dance diva, one part sunbeam, and one part lioness. This blog is a highlight reel of my favorite moments, my travels, my dance classes, and my spiritual journey. It is a place for me to express, share, and heal. Through my journey, I hope to inspire, create, and spread happiness. I truly enjoy making others feel good - about themselves, about their circumstances, about life in general. With any dash of hope, maybe you can feel that way too.