California wildfires are wreaking havoc, again. Today the air quality in San Francisco went from "unhealthy" to "very unhealthy" and it got me thinking about the parallels in my life that haven't exactly been a breathe of fresh air. I'm more than aware and grateful for my blessings, so have no fear because this isn't a rant. It's merely a story about introspection and self realization.
Between heartache and burnout, the last three months have been exhausting and I'll admit to feeling very emotionally suffocated. I love my job, I love my students, and I love the life I've built for myself but I have noticed as of late how I feel plagued by physical and creative burnout. For the last six years, I've worked very hard to build my business and sustain my life in San Francisco, often working 12 hour days and taking only one day per week to myself. The city has become a grim reflection of what it used to be and most of us find the disparity in wealth forcing us to work our fingers to the bone and then the bone into dust. On the flip side of that, the dating scene amongst Bay Area millennials is so disheartening. I've been single-ish since 2015, given a couple of situationships here and there, because thats all most of us really allow ourselves to commit to in 2018. The only emotion I have left is AHHHHHHHH! I refuse to use Tinder, Bumble, or the beyond and when I do meet someone I enjoy spending time with, it's often very short lived. This breeds a lingering feeling of loneliness and thoughts of "what if" for even the most independent or self assured in the bunch. Some of you reading this may have a similar story. So, what can we do when this happens?
If you're anything like me, you leap to fix it. I don't know how to sit around and wallow in my misery, so I make changes. The most immediate change I've been able to make is setting boundaries with my work. I set a schedule that I can manage and no longer overextend my hours to meet the needs of my clients. I schedule breaks from social media, for self care, and for fun. And I've started adding passion projects into my everyday mix, like working on this blog and a newly started apprenticeship for energy modalities & Reiki I. I recently listened to a master class on "resting" that provided scientific evidence on how true rest breeds way for more productivity. I also read an article about an artist who takes a break every seven years to reinvigorate his passion, then my friend Giulia told me that "sabbatical" means "every seven years". While I'm about six months shy, mine begins on February 2nd, 2019. I will be leaving San Francisco for a while to allow myself true creative replenishment and rejuvenation. My first "soul journey" will be a six month adventure to live in Europe that culminates with a trip to Mother Africa. I'm feeling inspired, excited, anxious, and so many other emotions. But ultimately in the present, I'm much calmer with my new chapter on the horizon which gives me continued confidence to balance my life in the present.
Maybe your "breath of fresh air" doesn't need to be as extreme as mine, but you still need one. I encourage you to sample the air quality in your heart and soul. Can you breathe okay? If not, what do you need? You are the only one who can create change in your life, make a list of what purity feels like to you.
I like meditation and I like crystals. If you don't know about the metaphysical properties of crystals, that's okay. I like to think of them like trees; here long before us, full of Mother Nature's healing spirit, and packed with vibrational wisdom. Meditation is the practice of finding stillness so that you may hear the answers that are already inside of you. Maybe this births a new idea, a realization, or in some cases a mystic connection. The art of meditation is actually in having no expectations and just building the practice. In any instance where I correlate personal experience to a blog post, I will suggest crystals that have personally helped me tap into what I need surrounding the particular topic discussed. It's merely a suggestion, you don't have to actually do anything with it. With that being said, Amethyst and Carnelian have both been so crucial during recent meditations in helping me to figure this all out.
Amethyst aids in balance, greater understanding, protection, and overall healing.
Carnelian aids in courage, motivation, confidence, and creativity.
Breathe easy, my friends.
Love, light, and lion vibes.
Hey, again. It's Shonna.
I'm one part dance diva, one part sunbeam, and one part lioness. This blog is a highlight reel of my favorite moments, my travels, my dance classes, and my spiritual journey. It is a place for me to express, share, and heal. Through my journey, I hope to inspire, create, and spread happiness. I truly enjoy making others feel good - about themselves, about their circumstances, about life in general. With any dash of hope, maybe you can feel that way too.