Two years my car died (RIP Gen) at 11pm on a Friday night heading into SF on 101. It was a terrifying experience and after having three CHP officers YouTube how to get my car into neutral and off the highway, we resorted to a tow truck and blocking three lanes of traffic for about an hour. My car was towed to the dealer to be diagnosed and they found that after only 3 years and 55,000 miles, Gen’s engine had gone to metal heaven. My warranty covered a rebuilt engine, so I had them replace it. I drove her around soundly and smoothly for months after the rebuild, but with constant thoughts of what could’ve happened that night, I just didn’t feel safe driving her anymore. Thinking back now to the concept of rebuilding an engine, gave me an idea about our own set of morals, values, and codes. How many times a day do you think about the rules of your life and where they came from? This has been a constant in my day to day life lately and it has become my challenge to dissect the rules I’ve been following and create a set that sits with me in mind, body, and spirit.
Essentially, we should look at our mind and ourselves as the car. From the time we are born our parents and elders put gas in, facilitate oil changes, drive through the car wash, and tell us how fast we can go - or they don’t. They let the car sit with dirt and dust. They drive around on empty and with lights on the dash, but still expect it to get them to where they’re going without issue. With the car is an inanimate object it’s bad enough, but when you think of yourself as the car, isn’t this the worst? How many of the principles that were instilled in you as a child do you still latch onto of which you don’t feel connected to? How many hurtful things were done and said to you that you’re still clinging too? How many times have you been called to do something, but didn’t for fear of judgement from loved ones? How many times have you held your tongue when you had a valid opinion of something, because that’s just what you’re supposed to do? Maybe it’s time for us all to step into the role of mechanic and look under our own hoods.
I want to help people reprogram their moral foundation. Because we base our believe system and our morals upon following a set of rules that were instilled within us before we were old enough to actually negotiate those guidelines. We made and accepted agreements unknowingly based on the pretenses of obedience and maybe even teachings of fear. My goal is to help people realize that you have to follow the path of your soul and trust your intuition and what you personally feel to be right in order to actually fulfill your purpose in this lifetime. You have to rebuild your engine.
As we close out 2018 and move into 2019, I want you to answer some questions for yourself:
Repeat this exercise for as many standards that you can think of that rule your day to day life.
Take a second to peel back the layers and take apart your engine. You might find that something is cracked or bent, something needs cleaned, to be replaced, or to be removed. You are not at fault for the programming or experiences that were presented to you in your youth. You are entirely responsible for making sure that your engine is operating in tip top shape in adulthood. This drive called life is a long and windy road. Take the time to reassess and make repairs where needed.
Love, light, and lion vibes,
Hey, again. It's Shonna.
I'm one part dance diva, one part sunbeam, and one part lioness. This blog is a highlight reel of my favorite moments, my travels, my dance classes, and my spiritual journey. It is a place for me to express, share, and heal. Through my journey, I hope to inspire, create, and spread happiness. I truly enjoy making others feel good - about themselves, about their circumstances, about life in general. With any dash of hope, maybe you can feel that way too.